This week 26 years ago (is it that long already?) my dad committed suicide. It was about a week before my 9th birthday. I remember my mum came home late on that Monday night when she came to tell my brother and I that there was an accident and that my dad passed away. And yes for a while in my life I did wonder why he would choose to do something like this. And yes there are times that I wonder what it would have been like if he chose to live, the relationship that he possibly would have had with my girls and so on. But I must be honest for a very long time now I have stopped wondering why. The truth is we will never know what went through his mind on that day. There is no point in driving myself crazy wondering about things I simply will never know.
A blogging buddy wrote that it is national suicide awareness day in Australia and so it is a good time for me to say:
Hang in there! Even when things feel incredibly tough. Even when it feels you have nowhere to turn. Find somebody to chat to, find a support group. There are many who love you and care about you. Don't choose to take your own life. It is devastating for those left behind. They want to share today, tomorrow and every day with you. Nothing can be so bad that you have to take your own life! Hang in there!