After Bianca's treatment ended I was sort of blogged out for a bit. The blog we used (click here) was mostly used to share her cancer journey and so when treatment ended it didn't seem to fit writing about things other than cancer. And I just couldn't get into it. And so I stopped for a little while.
Eventually I missed blogging and decided to create a new space. A space that would be about life in general.
This is what I wrote at the time:
Our new chapter. The one after a very long night, even though I must say it wasn’t all bad. It was manageable. It was hard, the hardest perhaps we have ever had to do. It was also long. The longest road yet. At times it really felt as if we got to what we thought might be the top of the mountain, just to be told, “there is the next, you are not quite done”. But despite all this, it was manageable. We got through. We stood tall.I remember at the time it was what I craved the most. To find "normal" again. To try and fit in again. But we didn't fit in, we didn't belong. It was a rather strange time. And the "unknown" scared the heck out of me. And nobody really understood.
I wanted a new place to write. I wanted to shift the focus a bit. But no doubt at times, where we came from will slip in, and that is fine. We cannot deny where we come from, our past. It is what shaped us and our journey and the road ahead. And it will always be part of us. And you can read all about it here if you wish.
So this blog won’t be as much about child cancer (a little I suppose). I still feel passionate about the cause But I hope that this blog will mostly be about life after cancer, about finding our normal. About living life.
It seems such a long time ago that I wrote those words.
When I created that blog I decided to try Wordpress for a bit. A lot of people raved about it and said how wonderful it was and so I decided to try it out. But in the end I went back to Blogger and created this blog. Can't remember what I didn't like about Wordpress, but I guess I'm a Blogger girl rather than a Wordpress girl.
Either way it was a rather nice little trip down memory lane reading through my Wordpress blog even if it only lasted a short little while. If you are interested, feel free to visit it (click here).
This particular post made me smile (click here).
This one made me feel rather sad (click here), and this one (click here).
And this one the start of my mum's biggest adventure ever (click here) (and here)
3 comments:
loved your trip down memory lane
Hi Lea! I read quite a few linked posts. Your cancer story about your daughter reminds me of my cousin who had cancer in his childhood. You are a beautiful person because you know what matters. That's how you know Paul, because he was Bianca's teacher. :D
:-) Marion
Keep moving forward and live life to the fullest!
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